Of love and offering and all the other stupid things

Still in lab. Still don't feel like working. At least I"m conscious now, so that's an improvement.

Physically I'm not feeling TOO sick, but the coughing and body ache serves as a constant reminder that I"m not feeling well. Doesn't matter that I've finally stared at the equations for long enough to understand them. I'm still sick.

That's ok, Pete's picking me up after my meeting. Then I can go home and rest. :P

A friend of mine asked me last night whether I would think it's okay for her to go out with her ex without going stable again. The concept on its own is a bit weird, if you think about it. In essence it's exclusive, but without the commitment and you can't quite call him a boyfriend. Kinda remind me of myself about a year ago really.

Now, do I think it's okay? The thing is, if the two of them are happy together, I don't see why they aren't, or if there's any reason why they shouldn't. The fact that neither of them want to commit sound to me like a warning sign.

Then again, relationship are never that straight forward. (With possibly the exception of me and Pete, and *touchwood* we're hoping it'd stay this way.) Obviously they have their own reason to avoid being committed, and if they are happy as they are now, I don't see there's a problem.

Speaking from personal experience, the risk lies in the excessive emotional investment. The idea that one day you would have to pull out. Even when both parties expected it, it still hurts. Oh yes it does.

I'm not even gonna go into what happen if one of them moves on.

That question my friend asked really hit me in a sense, because I was there. And now I'm thinking: If I am to start all over again, would I have done it all the same.

A long fogotten feeling about a long forgotten story.

Knowing the outcome: probably not. Although I was truly happy for a while.

And life is just a pursuit of happiness.

In a way I'm glad Keane's Somewhere only we know didn't come out earlier. That would be the song of the story that used to be.

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

I'm glad I can now just like the song for the melancholic song that it is.

PS: Probably quite obvious, I'm just very happy about where I am now. Happy people are selfish, hopefully the above article didn't hurt anyone... espeically those still needs to decide.

PPS: And to my one and only, Thank you for making me happy. :)